Time and time again I have wavered this thought. I have never bothered tracking wether or not it is cyclic or if it relates to certain periods of my life: whats going on, who am I interacting with, what energy exchanges am I participating in. Every now and then, I just hit a "rut". Am I doing what I am meant to be doing? Why do I feel unfulfilled in certain areas of my life?

I am fairly confident that you have had these same thoughts. You find yourself bored, fearing complacency, then jump to the next "Grand Idea" that will bring you a lifetime of happiness and joy. Today, my idea is to be a fashionable journalist... for no other reason than my enjoyment of writing and to dress up as a Vogue fashionista. Yesterday I wanted to be an Aromatherapist. And two days ago, a Psychotherapist. All in all, I WANT TO DO IT ALL!

So why can't we shift our desires, change our locations, experience the adventure of life the way we want to do so? What are YOUR dreams and ideals? What will make YOU feel FULFILLED or COMPLETE?

Try this...

Create a list of ALL THINGS that will complete you, that will make you whole because all of your dreams and aspirations are fulfilled. Go ahead... I'll wait...

Great. Now reread through this list. Are these impossible requests? Are you in any way not capable of achieving these? Sure, it may take some elbow grease... but at the end of the day, what is holding you back? I can tell you what the likely responses are... lack of support, time, discipline, and (duh!) money. 

Now, wait a minute... can't all these be determined by you? Let's see here...

SELF SUPPORT... only you can be responsible for achieving your own dreams. 
MAKE TIME... you have a calendar somewhere, I just know it. Look at it and set time aside for YOU to work on YOUR DREAMS. Be specific and realistic.
BE SELF DISCIPLINED and stick to it. It may not seem at first that things come easily and quickly. However, if disciplined throughout the process, you will look back and see just how easily and quickly your accomplishments did come. 
And last but not least, SURVIVE. I use this to replace MONEY. Why, you ask? Because MONEY comes as a RESULT of the work you put into something. So in the meantime, determine what you need to SURVIVE and do that - all while working towards your dreams. The money will come, I promise. You just have to trust in the basic Law of Physics: the work put into something equals the work put out. This work comes from SUPPORT (inspiration and motivation), TIME (the elbow grease), and DISCIPLINE (never give up).

As your Self speaking here, 

Namaste,
Yogi Rae

There was a point in my teaching career where I was questioning myself. I had developed my teaching style based on a specific lineage, but had not pursued being a disciple of the Guru, or any Guru for that matter. It just did not speak to my heart - I had learned from so many incredible teachers along the way, that to then dedicate my discipline to one, in particular, so far away and outside of my immediate reality just didn't sit well with me. These teachers that impacted my life along the way were normal, every day people. People and friends I had met beginning as far back as my college years. These people I made bad decisions with, and had profound enlightening experiences with. We worked together, played together, f*cked up together, laughed together and cried together. And then there was my family - the drama and joy and range from immaturity to sounding advice from siblings, parents and grandparents that all contributed to my development as a person here in this world, and as a teacher. 

So in the midst of my confusion, after reading an article about the importance of a teacher having a Guru, I consulted two dear friends of mine. They too were teachers so I hoped to find an answer from their own experience. And I was right, the answer I received was so simple yet so profound - it sent chills down my spine. 

"So, what are your thoughts about the need to have a Guru? What is Guru?" I asked.

"G, yoU aRe yoU," they replied.